Wine!

Wine was a bad choice and let to more bad choices! I am writing this from my inebriated state! I was on feb fast ie abstain from alchol!
As it is now March I thought what a nice way to relax on a friday night! WRONG!!!
I had three glasses of some nice whites tonight! then went looking for something else! bah baumh
ice cream and instead of a bowl it was straight formt eh container!! hmm n i didnt even enjoy it!! it wasnt that good!

But I dont feel guilty. my thought process ill just work it off tomorrow at the gym!! BAD ME, BAD!!
Why did i do this? im wondering if im seeing if i am me even with losing weight! im .4 off 10kg mark! and I planned on smashing more than that this week! I really dont know if that will happen but I'm going to push myself at the gym tommorrow and on sunday! and every day until weigh in! im going to lose more than 6kilos this month! by not doing stupid things if i drink! by burning more than 500 cals each time at the gym!
I am going to win and push past my stupidity!! and not be silly again!!
talk soon!!

Steam!

Im running out of steam! I'm feeling deflated tired and lost!
Im not getting any where with my running progam and I feel silly cos of it!
I feel silly because I dont feel like Im actually getting anywhere! And it suxs!!
I feel lost because I dont feel like im getting anywhere.

I have used my facebook "friends" help for my March challenge! I posted on 5 pages a like for a kilometer! i now have 250 to do over 31 days! yay!!

I have the week 3 blues I think! week two was good.
I have so far lost weight every week.

I must say I was going well until I did lunges on Monday! They hurt hurt hurt!
I'm hurting hurting hurting!

I'm .4 away from 10kg.

My aim for this week til weigh in exercise  6 days! 10kms per training sesh at least!
eat clean as! 600 cals each sess with one of 1000 cals! I am going to smash it!

WEEK 1

So Week 1! I need to get organised! seriously eating dinner at 8 at night sux!

exercise wise ive done ok! im getting into it and have to remember that putting me first isnt that bad!
ive tried two recipes the lasange and the panang chicken yum yum yum! and freaking easy!

I've come to a few conclusions over the last few weeks! I have a few friends who are supportive untill i say my goal weight it lower than what she weighs currrently! this person is hot! very svelt bod. she use to be really fit until she got implants shes still hot but not as fit! so having her big friend aim to be smaller prob freaks her out a bit!

i am working my probs out and will get there! i put a pink gym on layby the other day n i will pick it up once ive hit 10kg which on weds was 3kg away! lets hope i can smash it soon cos the bag is really cute! and i want it now!

i have a goal to be 80kg when i go home in four weeks! if im less I wont be disappointed! so im going to smash this out! its just on 9kg I'll get rid of it nicely! by eating carefully and gyming it! am looking forward to gym this week!
any way need some sleep ill talk soon!!

WOW lets start!!

Hi im Punky!
below are my goals to complete by 30/12/2012

I will lose 35kg +!
I will run 10k in under an hour!
I will be even more faboulous than i am now!
I will start to train for a half marathon by then end of this year!
I will even try a triathalon!

I am giving myself the best present i can this year! i will be fit, healthy and freaking awesome!
I will not let people get to me and bring me down to their level! i will use as many of my Positive contacts as i possibly can! (warning all you 12bwt! thats you)


I am a BIG 26 year old fem fatale! ahaha! but i want to be a small one!
I live with my man, and our cat! hopefull a puppy soon!
i work 2 jobs one in gov and the other in care! i am generally a happy person who will help any and all my friends and family if possible!
i am living in brisbane these days but i am a southerner at heart! love the real weather down there! you kno the 4 seasons! ahaha!

I Do not like being big! i have been big since i can remember! i've always tried not to let anyone know how much i dont like it! i hate not being hot and sexy like my friends can be!

I am sick of feeling like a white whale at te beach! mind you even when im skinny ill still be the white one maybe just a cute dolphin! ahaha i burn way to easy so its rashies for me! but hey im actually ok with that! you dont have to check  your bosom is still in its top! ahaha!

I am  also sick of being sick! it suxed beyond belief!

I believe that you can not love anyone until you can love yourself! i do love me, well not really the wobbly bits! but i love me enough that i will be healthy!

I am eating clean and will start the exercise after my move next week!!
ok so i think i have written enough for now! more next time!
Cheers and talk soon!!